My great passion

I've always love music. I've always been telling myself that I have a talent for music. Thus, I've been working hard for the past 10 years in practising my piano just so I thought I would be good in it. I did it honestly, having a distinction for my advance certificate, I thought that I would pass my ATCL with a distinction too. I was tremendously stressed out, scared and tired. Things weren't working well. I partially gave up, even at the moment of my exam. After getting my results and knowing that I failed, my heart broke a million pieces. I thought to myself "should i retake the exam?" At last, I didn't. After so long, I decided to call it an end. I once loved piano, and honestly I still do, but after a failure where things weren't getting better, I was and am heartbroken. My passion and love for music slowly fades. My fingers start to get stiff and I can no longer play the pieces the same way again. Once a passion,once a great love got thinner and thinner and slowly it disappeared. I still love music, I still do. I want to compose,produce and play great pieces from great composers,but I'm scared because I can't produce things like how I used to. I'm trying to find ways to cope with how I was. Things changed and it wasn't for a good cost. I am deeply sad with it. All I can do now is to find my great passion, feel music like how I used to. Play with emotions, love and obviously, my passion for it. Something that is faded can be repainted again. 

Love, 

Leanne 

I'm back!!

Hey it's Leanne! After 3 years, I'm finally posting again. Well,the last two years had been a hard one for me. 2015 was my most stressful year ever. I had anxieties and panic attacks that occurred just because of me getting scared that I couldn't cope with my studies.Well, 2016 wasn't a good year either. At many times I had to choose between music and my studies. I was preparing for my ATCL exams, at the same time for my SPM (final year exam) I was constantly stressed and confused at the same time. And at last, I failed my ATCL and got bad grades for my SPM trials. Now, it's 2017. I'm glad that I finally graduated high school, but I'm still waiting for my SPM results in March. I'm in college now but I am still in the preparatory class that they are having now. It's fun but I'm really excited to start my course. Oh, by the way, my course is Diploma in Film and TV production. Many people think that it is odd to study this course because it is not really famous in my country. Honestly, I've been wanting to study in this field since I was young. I was really curious with the production and I've always wanted to be a part of it. I'm seriously excited about it. I'm glad that part of my wish came true and I wish to go further. I know that my future would be tiring, stressful and odd, but forget about that because I believe, one day I would succeed and I would be able to prove all those people that my odd choice that time was my best choice. 

Good luck to everyone, stay safe, x
Leanne