My great passion

I've always love music. I've always been telling myself that I have a talent for music. Thus, I've been working hard for the past 10 years in practising my piano just so I thought I would be good in it. I did it honestly, having a distinction for my advance certificate, I thought that I would pass my ATCL with a distinction too. I was tremendously stressed out, scared and tired. Things weren't working well. I partially gave up, even at the moment of my exam. After getting my results and knowing that I failed, my heart broke a million pieces. I thought to myself "should i retake the exam?" At last, I didn't. After so long, I decided to call it an end. I once loved piano, and honestly I still do, but after a failure where things weren't getting better, I was and am heartbroken. My passion and love for music slowly fades. My fingers start to get stiff and I can no longer play the pieces the same way again. Once a passion,once a great love got thinner and thinner and slowly it disappeared. I still love music, I still do. I want to compose,produce and play great pieces from great composers,but I'm scared because I can't produce things like how I used to. I'm trying to find ways to cope with how I was. Things changed and it wasn't for a good cost. I am deeply sad with it. All I can do now is to find my great passion, feel music like how I used to. Play with emotions, love and obviously, my passion for it. Something that is faded can be repainted again. 

Love, 

Leanne